The last couple of weeks were to stressful and exhausting, jobwise and crossfit related. I did not even have time to update my blog a little bit. It was just to much to do. All the qualifiers and competitions next to end of school year work. Yes, I am full time teacher at a school with a lot of different students, not the easiest thing to do CF on that level I try to do. And I do not like admitting it, I am not in my twenties anymore. My body reminds me on that when it comes to situations like that.
My CF journey started in my 30ies, I had never done a real competitive sport before. I kinda started from point zero, couldn’t do a handstand against the wall, not a single strict pull up. I just visited a global gym, jogged and used my bike. It was such a hard way to be where I am now and I am still far away from others who just started CF but are younger or have an athletic background. It is and is has always been a struggle.
There are so many moments I am really pissed because I have to put so much more more in my training and I am still behind, this can be frustrating and it takes a lot of time and patience. And there is my real job, my other free time (family, friends)which is so hard to bring together. The last weeks were just to much and I am very happy to be done with competitions for the summer. I will try to breath, go back to training but do things I love. We will see how it works out.